Hey Friends

           So I thought I will share with you a little bit what is happening in my life at these days. As many of you know I am trying to finish my school what I quitted, when I was about 16 years old. At the same time I work full time as security guard. It sounds pretty easy, but I have lately been really sdepressed by all the pressure of busy life. I don´t have so much time to spend with my friends, so it has also made me feel pretty lonely.
I have thought a lot about giving up and just go for long travel... I know, that it´s not my God´s plan for my life, but it just seems like easiest way.

           Today being in the church I was praying, that God could somehow reveal himself to me. I prayed, that He could find me where I am right now with my life and He could give me strength to move on.
There was not lifechanging moment at church, but I was sure, that God is going to answer.

           I went home and little bit later I took bicycle to just spend some time riding around in the neighbourhood. I was just discovering some new places and in a little while I found myself from a place where I used to hang out 3 years ago. Suddenly I was in the middle of the old memories and God just started to speak to me.

         The place I found was a house, where me and my friends used to drink daily. It was right after my friend died and I was really depressed and lost meaning of living. I was struggling with alcoholism and suicidal thoughts.
Today, standing there outside of the house I remembered all the crazy days there. I remembered all the pain and lonelyness I was struggling with.

          After living through all the past, I realized how much different is my life now with God.. Even though it is really difficult sometimes I have always God, who is with me in the problems and He is caring me through.
It made me really valuate all these "Small" things again like having a warm place to stay or having friends around me... There are so many people, who would kill to have this life, that I have right now... Now I realized again, how much I have given.

          God really gave an answer for my prayer and it gave me so much strength to fight on. Never forget, where you come from.. If you feel like giving up, just think about where God has brought you through...

I hope it will give you some motivation to keep fighting and even more, I hope it will make you realize how blessed you are.

Have a great night and stay strong :)